Origin
Why? And why?
In 2024, my New Year's resolution was to connect more with friends and family and a newsletter called "De Leut" was born. Every month an update (well, almost), that my brother and sister recognized meant so much to me that they actually gifted me a published version of De Leut this Christmas (!!)
In 2025, it was all about connecting with myself more. I discovered a new, healthy coping mechanism for the first time in my life. I used to surpress a lot of feelings, especially the negative ones by being ashamed of them, trying to be positive, pretending they didn't exist etc. Then in therapy, I learned the hard way that ignoring them only hurt me more in the end. Instead, I found a way to bottle the emotions I was experiencing, no matter how negative, contradicting or complex they were. I poured them into song lyrics and created actual tunes out of it with the aid of AI. And this place? This my published version of 2025, a place to curate the songs in case I ever want to revisit them.
P.S. Why Little Lotte? The theme of this website is inspired by Phantom of the Opera, my first ever and maybe even favourite musical.